Februaury 17th

I am so tired.
And I am guilty once again for not keeping up with blogging!
I'm seriously going to try to get back on it, for me.

Last night was tough.
We got some really sad news. Our family is pretty tight, and when one suffers, we all suffer.

My Dad lives for his dog. Seriously. This dog is so special and important to him.
He has always had a difficult time expressing his feelings, and he's never been the most affectionate man I've known.... until "Molly".
She's a golden, about to be 6 years old.
Yesterday, while I was working, and dealing with some other stuff, Mom called me from her office crying...
Molly has bone cancer. Damn. SHIT! All I could think about was how heartbroken my Dad is. She told me he had called her while bringing her home from the Vet. He was crying... Then, she began to cry. I got up from my desk and went to see her in her office. I was crying. What a mess. At this point, we know that she will lose her leg... UNLESS it has spread. If it has, we're not sure what will happen :(. Dad will be taking her to the vet today. So, I will learn more about things later....
I so love my family. I have my hubby who is struggling with the thought of losing his father to cancer. And, not having had the best relationship all these years with him...and the thoughts and regrets of what could have been, should have been...etc..
My parent's, and this whole cancer thing with Molly..

And then there's new friendships blossoming, and fairly new friendships that feel like they are crumbling... Things can be so frustrating and confusing. I wish I understood better.. I really do.

I am very excited about my new adventures. I have so many doors opening up with such positive feelings shining through.. I have these amazing friends that I am bonding with really well... so considerate and loving. I adore them. You know, it was so sweet and special.. my girlfriend wrote my husband a letter yesterday. It was the sweetest gesture I have seen coming from a friend in such a long time.
My husband made lunch for me and a couple of my girlfriends. They appreciated it so much that one of them wrote him the nicest thank you letter. It was awesome. I know he felt good receiving it. My other girlfriend tells him all the time how awesome he is. I love that. Good people. I am so blessed.

Now, I know this for sure, and I can't be more thrilled. Fred and I have felt so close, so strong. We recently celebrated our 10 years together. What amazing bonding time we've shared. I can't imagine my life without him. We have been having these moments lately that I wouldn't miss for anything. So connected... on so many levels. It's been absolutely amazing...

It doesn't end there..
We are heading out of town this Friday to see some really special friends that we haven't seen since last September. There are 3 other couples that we'll be meeting. We're all so excited! We'll spend the night visiting, and the next morning we'll go our for Breakfast... I hope. That's what we usually do when we all meet up. :) I am looking forward to it. As is Fred. :)

The following week we're heading to Binghamton NY just for an overnight stay on Saturday. My girlfriend Darci is having a huge 40th Birthday celebration at a gorgeous resort in Binghampton. I haven't seen her in 20 years. I am so anxious to see her again. It should be so nice. I can't wait....

I am also getting ready to celebrate my Birhtday soon. I'm sad though... I am not sure where things stand with a couple of our friends that we have been really close with... and we're supposed to be getting together, and going to a concert together. I have no idea what's happening... and it makes me feel really sad. I wish I didn't care so much about everything... I am way to emotional. I just don't get it... and I have no clue where we stand anymore :( Fred tells me to quit worrying. He doesn't like that I get so involved... because in the end, it seems feelings are always hurt... and I am way too worried all the time about people.. ugh.

Anyway...

It's a beautiful day today. I am happy to be sitting here writing, and breathing, and living.

I'm in Princeton. I am beginning to enjoy working in Princeton on Tuesdays... I think I like the break from the big office.

Wow..I got a lot out there, and off my chest.

Peace.

Me and my sweetheart

Hubby and I have just made it through 3 consecutive weekends of him being on call, and pretty much being "grounded" in a sense. It's been a little crazy! We're not used to being tied down for that amount of time....

We've done some fun things together, and have enjoyed each other's company soooooo much. :) But, we're happy to be able to hit the road next weekend!!

Work is going well.
Life is good.
Fred and I are approaching our 10 year anniversary. :) We're leaving town on Friday and beginning our celebration. It's a little early (it's on the 12th) but we're taking full advantage of the weekend since he won't be on call! :)

Looking forward to Spring. This winter feels especially long. I'm ready to get on with warmer, longer, sunnier days. I've had enough of the bitter cold. :P

We're watching the Superbowl. It's half time. Springsteen is performing. He's doing great. He promised to fit in as much as possible in 12 minutes. He's doing well. ;) I never much cared for his music. It just wasn't my thing. Now I think it's ok. I like the guy, I think he's a decent person.

We watched a movie this weekend. "Burn After Reading". I didn't like it. As a matter a fact, it was over and I had no idea it was ending. It was supposed to be a funny movie but people were getting shot in the head and stuff. I thought it was a joke, and the people really weren't getting killed....but then I soon realized that they were.. and it wasn't funny, it was gory and creepy. The best part of the whole movie was the company I was keeping. :)

I have reconnected with a bunch of people on facebook. It's been a lot of fun getting to know some old friends lately. I am even taking a trip soon to see one of them. I am so excited! I can't wait.

Speaking of old friends... Fred and I are going to see some of our old friends in a couple of weeks. We haven't seen them in months. Some of the best people we have ever met. They're like the type of people that we lose touch with for a little while but when we get back in touch, it's like we never missed that time together. We are looking forward to good laughs with them, and a nice breakfast out. We always have breakfast with them when we get together. :) It should be nice.

I'm rambling... but it's okay. I'm just trying to play a little catch up!

I am a slave to my Wii Fit. I LOVE it. I am going to try my very best to get on it every single day. It's addicting once you start using it. :) My little "Mii" is so cute. She's a little outta shape. LOL. I guess I better get on the ball!
Tonight I played with Fred and Brandon. It was so fun and funny. I love the Ski Jump. We laugh and laugh. And we're competitive. THAT makes it even better. We each try to get 1st place in all of the games... it's awesome. Brooke missed playing with us because she was at a Cheerleading competition. Next time she can play with us!

So much going on at work. I so love my job. Anyone who knows me knows how I felt in my previous department. Now, I'm happy with the people I work with, and I make more money! Not bad. :) I do love my job.

The picture above is from the weekend. It's me and my best friend. The love of my life. :)

Well, I won't blog any more tonight... I am not much in the mood to do so, and I'd bet you can feel it in my writing.

Peace!