Coldplay ~ "Fix You"

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And on your face I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And on your face I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Yep... I lost it. I was screaming at the kids, throwing the "F" bomb around like a sailor. I feel kind of bad now, although they seem to be completely happy, content and over the whole thing. I still feel badly. I don't like to lose my temper.. especially in front of their friends. Ugh.... So of course I apologized to Caitlin, and she just laughed... and said it was fine. I think she may have thought it was funny.. who knows. Or, maybe she was just happy that I gave her a flat Iron. She told me she loved me, that was cute....

In any event, Fred and I got a lot of Christmas shopping done today. Holy Stressful! I think we would have done better earlier if we didn't waste our time going through the city to that weird place that was nothing like we expected! What a strange place!

And, I will admit... Franklin Mills Mall is very overwhelming, but it served us well today. Everyone was SO nice! I mean that completely! People were kind and helpful. I enjoyed my shopping experience there a lot. And, much was accomplished! Now I'm feeling a little bit more like Christmas!

Right now I'm sitting in the Living room close to the Christmas tree. Brooke and Tyler did a beautiful job decorating it with all gold decorations, lights, garland, etc... A beautiful tree. I am thinking that a hot cup of coffee might be good right now...

Hubby got called in to work. But, he's on his way home. I bet he's exhausted. Shopping with me is no easy task. I know I drive him crazy. I know I pushed his buttons today.... he was so patient. I appreciate that a lot. I was stressed and full of anxiety.. and, my head was pounding. I know it's not easy being married to me. BUT, I try to be kind and gentle and the best I can be, all of the time. Well, not all of the time. Not today with the F bomb flying all over.... lol

Party tonight. I'm am looking forward to it.

SATURDAY!

Time to go shopping!

It's freezing cold but I am SO ready to tackle Christmas shopping!!!! Hope it goes well!

Coffee.. check.
money.... check.
the will to face the crowds.... um, check....
the strength to ignore ignorant people... well, um.. check. :)

And off we go!