Does anyone have anything else for me to absorb today??? Sure, go for it.... but like a ticking time bomb, I'm liable to explode.
I mean it. The thoughts in my head, well, they're not anything that you might want to hear today. So, let me be, just let me be...
I'm a kind, loving, warm hearted human being. I am not here to cause trouble or harm. I want to speak only kind words, so my apologies if I'm so quiet and withheld today. Sometimes it's just better that way...But don't think for a moment that I don't care, or that I am not aware of what's going on. Don't mistake me for some dumb bitch who hasn't a clue..because really, I do. I am well aware of what's going on.
"What else...??? What else..???what else..???" Are you serious?? Are you fucking serious????
Sunday, April 10, 2011
My mental and emotional ass got kicked today.
I am considering taking up drinking as my new found happiness and hobby. You know it's bad when you're sitting beside the collection of wine in your livingroom and it looks really appealing at 10 a.m.
You know it's bad when you think you'd rather be at work than at home, facing the music.
You know it really sucks when you welcome your Parents in the driveway, when they called to show you their new car, and wanted to stop by with it.... and within moments you learn it's not really why they came, rather they stopped over to speak to me like I was their 8 year old kid again... and I'm really 43.
It's one of those days.
All I can think is "WTF"
You know it's drained you when you can't even accomplish the simple tasks you so easily do every other Sunday of your life When you don't even know how to approach the smallest job, and hanging laundry seems like a major production....
And then, you shower and go through the motions, but could give a shit if your hair is done....and that's not even me.
Yep....one hell of a crappy day.
Peace.
I am considering taking up drinking as my new found happiness and hobby. You know it's bad when you're sitting beside the collection of wine in your livingroom and it looks really appealing at 10 a.m.
You know it's bad when you think you'd rather be at work than at home, facing the music.
You know it really sucks when you welcome your Parents in the driveway, when they called to show you their new car, and wanted to stop by with it.... and within moments you learn it's not really why they came, rather they stopped over to speak to me like I was their 8 year old kid again... and I'm really 43.
It's one of those days.
All I can think is "WTF"
You know it's drained you when you can't even accomplish the simple tasks you so easily do every other Sunday of your life When you don't even know how to approach the smallest job, and hanging laundry seems like a major production....
And then, you shower and go through the motions, but could give a shit if your hair is done....and that's not even me.
Yep....one hell of a crappy day.
Peace.
Today is not Monday, but let's post this anyway...
YES...YES..YES, and a BIG FAT YES.
That's my final answer.
Sunday
Hello.
Sometimes I wish I could blog my deepest feelings and thoughts. But, I know in my heart that some of the things I think and feel should just be kept in my head where they remain safe.
Today, I am going to let a little out....
Last night I went to be feeling pretty sad. It's been a difficult few weeks, and I've had a lot of stuff weighing heavy on my head and my heart. I don't want to feel this way, but it's natural to, especially when things aren't going well. I also hate to go to sleep with sad feelings because I fear that if I never wake up, I've gone with sadness instead of joy.
Sometimes it feels like nothing will ever be right. Sometimes it feels like everyone is on such a different page in life. I sure wish it was easy, but life has proven itself to be not that way.
I always tell myself that things could be worse, and well, they could. But I'd love things to just feel at least a little "normal" once in awhile...and with that said, I'm not even really sure what "normal" is anymore.
It's Sunday. A day of rest and a day of peace. I hope it goes that way today. It would be nice to find a little peace in my home and in my heart. It's been a pretty negative weekend, and I'd like to see it come to a close with a few smiles, and some goodness. We'll see what happens.
Sometimes I wish I could blog my deepest feelings and thoughts. But, I know in my heart that some of the things I think and feel should just be kept in my head where they remain safe.
Today, I am going to let a little out....
Last night I went to be feeling pretty sad. It's been a difficult few weeks, and I've had a lot of stuff weighing heavy on my head and my heart. I don't want to feel this way, but it's natural to, especially when things aren't going well. I also hate to go to sleep with sad feelings because I fear that if I never wake up, I've gone with sadness instead of joy.
Sometimes it feels like nothing will ever be right. Sometimes it feels like everyone is on such a different page in life. I sure wish it was easy, but life has proven itself to be not that way.
I always tell myself that things could be worse, and well, they could. But I'd love things to just feel at least a little "normal" once in awhile...and with that said, I'm not even really sure what "normal" is anymore.
It's Sunday. A day of rest and a day of peace. I hope it goes that way today. It would be nice to find a little peace in my home and in my heart. It's been a pretty negative weekend, and I'd like to see it come to a close with a few smiles, and some goodness. We'll see what happens.
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