Good-Bye 2010!

I have so much in my head and in my heart right now that I am having huge writers block. I am filled with emotion, and I am confused, sad, anxious, concerned, and so on.... so, I don't have a whole lot to say right now.

One thing I'm sure of...

I'm ready to start a new year. I definitely don't want to forget the events of 2010, but I DO want to make 2011 better than this year, and certainly better than 2009.

Chin up...
Put the smile on, and think positive. It's time to look on the bright side and make this a better year.

Oh what a night....
My poor, sweet, little mini me... and her broken heart.
I felt so bad for her. Tonight I saw her suffer and cry and there was absolutely no words I could say to her to make her feel better. That Tyler... what was he thinking? How could things be so good and nice one moment, and then so bad the next. I don't get it, but I do know that he really hurt her feelings, and she trusted him. Huge lesson to be learned at her ripe age of 14. It's so difficult.... nothing is just easy. I learned a lesson too. I cannot possibly protect her from everything out there. Hurt and a broken heart is one of those things.... All we could do is hug her and tell her it will be okay. And, it will... she just doesn't see that right now. I hope she feels a little better tomorrow. I love my girl. I wish I could make it all better for her, all of the time.

And, the cats... I think we're going to have to find a new home for them and have a pet free home. It's getting more difficult each day trying to manage 4 cats. I am actually getting to the point where I'm feeling frustrated all the time about them. I never wanted 4 cats... it sort of just happened. I would have been plenty happy with just one.
That's a whole other story... It's really a hard place to be in right now.

I got my new XM radio. It's very nice. I have been using xm without a remote for over a year and haven't been able to use it as well. Safety first! Now I can change all of the channels without having to reach for the buttons! Yay! Sounds silly, but it's hard to drive and manage my music. I am excited to have it! Thank you Santa :)
I'll be listening to lots of music tomorrow on the ride to Maryland.

Weird day. Some ups, some downs.... I really had to hold back the tears with Brooke... I'm so sad for her.

New Year ahead. I am SO looking forward to it!

This guy I know thinks people who make New Year's Resolution's are "Stupid". Well, I for one make them, and I don't think I'm stupid. I think when you reflect back over the year that's coming to an end, there's nothing in the world wrong with deciding that there are some things we'd like to change for the new year ahead of us. What a narrow minded a-hole he was being. There's nothing wrong with making the commitment to make changes, and what better time to do so? Jeff, kiss my plump, round booty! (lol) He'll never see this blog, so I can enjoy venting about him!!!! I WILL be making some New Year's Resolutions. My hope is to stick to them. At least I'm going to try!!!!

Speaking of New Years... Tomorrow morning I will hit the road! Headed to Edgewood Maryland. I am so happy it's Edgewood! I thought I was having to drive all the way to Baltimore!!! Nope..... Edgewood is only about a 2 hour ride. I'm looking forward to getting away! We'll see our pals, and have a nice dinner, and open bar for the party. Nice. I was going to drink wine, but I'm scared it might make me wake up with a racing heart again.. I definitely don't want that!!! I might have to rethink about what I'll be drinking!!!!! And, I can't get hung over.. I have to drive home on Saturday!!!! It will be fun going to this party. It's been a long time since I left the house on NYE. I always worry about being on the roads, and now I don't have to even think about it.

Life.

Well, we're almost there... on to a new year.

I am thinking it would be a good idea to make a year in review list.. but right this second I am just too tired to think about what this past year was like.

New year, new attitude... new chance to make great memories!

Oops... I fell asleep during "The Kids Are All Right"....

Sleepy girl.

Peace.

Not my kind of movie. I'm not trying to be a movie critic, but it helps me to remember the movies that I watch if I post about them, and keep track. For example, a few years ago I saw the movie "Wild Hogs", and looking at my blog I'm able to remember the movie almost perfectly. It makes a difference when I document the information. Maybe it helps to put it in my long term memory? Who knows... all I know is it helps me!

Next movie for tonight:
The Kids are Alright! Let' see if this one is more like my kind of movie. It was my pick of the night!

Brandon went with me to give my friend some Hot Chocolate. He's such a good boy!
This woman is so sweet. I wish I understood.... She is so polite and so friendly to me. She knows me now, so when I knock on her window, she opens the door with a big smile. And when I give her something, she thanks me over and over again. I never stay. I don't want her to feel like I'm invading her privacy, or trying to be nosy. I wish I knew what the right thing was to do. But, I don't. So, I'll just keep an eye out for her and hope for the best. It makes me get choked up every time I walk away from her. I just feel like I'm about to burst into tears....

Okay, let me move away from that. I can't change things for her... I can, however, stop over every now and then and help her out. I hope she'll be okay.

I got 2 movies for tonight.
1: THE OTHER GUYS
2: THE KIDS ARE ALRIGHT

Movie night.... I'm looking forward to both. Funny, in the last 2 months I've watched more movies than I have in probably a whole year! Must be the cold weather.

Gonna go get my comfy's and slippers on, and grab my snuggie. :P

I got a lot of laundry done today! And, I cleaned the laundry room about 1/2 way where it needs to be!!! YAY for me getting something accomplished other than shopping and spoiling myself!

Tonight I will watch movies, read, or blog... or all of the above. Oh, and I may have a nice glass of wine!! In the mean time, it's time to look at redbox to see what's out there to rent.

The house is quiet.... shhhhhh enjoy it now because soon there will be 2 girls and just my boy. Getting better. lol. When ever there's less than 6 kids here for a sleep over I feel like we're catching a break.

Thank you for the Photo Megs!

Me and my two best girlfriends from work! Sexy lover girls!!! I love you both!!!!!

Ooops! I missed Monday's Thought Provoking Question! So, here goes...

I find this to be appropriate since we're about move on into a brand new year!

I have many answers for this one!

Sunny Day...

Now if the ugly snow would just go away it would be a perfect day out there!!!!!

Good afternoon, beautiful world.

Last night I had this restless night. I had so much in my head that I wanted to blog about, but I decided that since my thoughts were racing, and jumping from one thing to the next, I better just try to relax, and get some rest. That's the thing with writing. Sometimes things come to you, and you have to get in front of the computer and just go with it. But, other times, there's too much, and it takes time to sort everything out so that it makes sense when you sit and write.

One of the things going through my head last night was the the lady who lives in her car with her cat. I often find myself trying to figure her out. I even try to talk it out, so I better understand her. Last night I was laying in bed just thinking how she was out there in that parking lot in the cold. I wonder if she ever gets scared. And, I wonder if the Falls Township Police really look out for her. I know she's been there almost a year now, so I know she's noticed by the police. How did she get all battered and bruised that time? And, who was she trying to call on the pay phone next to Giant... Did the pizza people give her that food, and do they freely allow her to use their restroom? Where does she shower? What about her family? Aren't people worried about her.... or do they know she's mentally ill, and they set her free from their life... These are some of the things I was thinking about last night. No wonder I was so restless.... And, the poor cat. Should I feel sorry for the cat for being stuck in that crowded car, or should I be happy that he's loved, and has a warm lap to lay in at night when he goes to sleep. I wonder what they both think about. Do cats think? I know they must... Don't we all?
I'm scared in my own home when the wind blows to hard, or when it's raining really bad. I can't imagine how she must feel being in that car.
I think about how mean people are, and I worry that someone might try to hurt her. Can you imagine? I don't want to think these things, or even wonder all of this.. but I do. Today I should bring her some coffee. Or maybe food. And I should pack a bag of cat food for the cat. Yep, that's what I'm going to do.

So, I eventually fell asleep last night. When my head is so full, it's so hard. I usually have no trouble at all going to sleep... Heck, I have a hard time staying up most nights!

I think that movie bothered me a lot. I was watching it and thinking, this movie sucks... even Fred suggested that we turn it off. It wasn't very good. But, I had invested some time into it, and I wanted to see what happened. It was a poor choice on my part. A mistake. It was horrifying. It made me hate people. It made me sick. What the heck is wrong with people??? I know it was a movie, but I also know that there are people out there just like on that movie, and they should be shot. UGH!
Maybe I think to much. I should just relax a little.

On a lighter note. I worked in my closet a bit today. It was time (again) to unload some of the clothes I'm not getting use out of. I have some beautiful clothes. I will bring them with me to Monica this weekend. She loves when I clean my closet. I love to share with her.
I won't be sharing with Karen this time. I will admit, it's sweet how much Karen thinks of me. She says my clothes always smell like me, and she can't get enough of them. One time I gave her some clothes and she stuck her face in them and was all happy. LOL. I miss her. I really need to make a date with her soon. She's a good person... Oh, and I think she came "out". lol. I saw a post she left on facebook about not liking men. Good for her if that was her way of sharing herself. It's a shame when people can't be open about who they are, what they like, and so on. I'm all for being open about your sexuality. I enjoy both men and women. I'm not uncomfortable at all about sharing that.

I suppose it's time to get out in that sunshine. I have some things I'd like to do today. And, hubby is off too. He's not feeling well.... I hope he feels better soon.

And off I go!!!!!

I have a lot on my mind, so I'll be blogging more later!

Best wishes to you. xoxoxox

This was literally a Horror Movie.

Surprise! No warning that it would be a horror flick.

Don't watch it. It's disgusting.

A waste of precious time, really.

Two thumbs down.

A great day of shopping!!!!! I bought bra's, tops, bottoms, Bath & Body Works lotions, candles, soaps, hand sanitizers... Hit 2 malls! Had a great day just for me!!!!! Now I'm relaxing on the couch with hubby watching a movie from Netflix instant queue. I forget the name, so I'll post it after!

Day 2 of vacation!!! Loving the time off!!!!!

Kids are at the Mall and the movies. Brandon will have John and Mike sleep over tonight and the girls will sleep at Haleys. Nice for them, great for us not to have way to many kids here tonight. lol

Better get back to my movie.. It's about a woman who works at a motel and "services" the men for $60 bucks extra. Only into the movie about 20 minutes and she's taken care of 3 men already. lol. Let's see what happens!

Tuesday

I'm not going to let the snow slow me down today. I hate it, but this is my vacation and I want to enjoy it! I really want to make it to Bath and Body Works and take advantage of my favorite sale of the year! I look forward to this sale all year long.. I know, crazy, huh? But, I do! I love stocking up on my regular lotions and stuff. I love them!

I have 5 kids here right now. 3 girls and 2 boys. The boys were still awake this morning when I first got up at 6.m.! The girls were sound asleep. I bet those boys aren't going to be in any hurry to get up today. I remember when I was a kid. I could sleep until like 11 a.m. when I didn't have school. These days I think about how I don't want to miss the day. I'd rather go to bed a little bit earlier at night then lose a big portion of my day.

Speaking of... I better jump in the shower!

The Secretary

Watched this movie tonight.

I couldn't write much about this movie last night because I was so tired that I couldn't even think! I enjoyed it. Fun, interesting, and something I could relate to. I think the sub/dom was a little extreme, example: sitting at the desk for 3 days waiting for the guy, peeing herself, etc... but, other than that, I thought it was really good. :)

So, yesterday was a messy, snowy, windy day. I want to mention this once again.. I can't get over how f'd up people can be. I'm talking about my neighbors. All of them have snowblowers. All of them help each other out. They do the sidewalks in 5 minutes. Why can't they do my strip of sidewalk? Seriously? Is it that difficult to extend your hand? I don't understand, and I suppose that's a good thing. I wouldn't think twice about doing it if I had a snowblower. Neighbors, you suck. I'm a nice person... but I am vowing to not go out of my way for any of you. Period.
Whew.. I feel a little better. :)

So hubby came home after spending 27 hours in the blizzard. I can't even imagine. His feet were red and swollen, and he was completely exhausted. I feel terribly bad and guilty every year when he goes through this. Plus, I worry something bad will happen to him. I'm always wide eyed when he's gone... and then once he returns, I sleep like a baby. I hope this is the only snow of the winter.....

I did some shopping on my first official day of vacation. I bought 3 pairs of Boots, some tops and bottoms at Macy's, and had a lot of fun shopping! Then, I came home and cooked up a big pot of Chili. Lot's of kids sleeping over, and a hubby that needs a good hot meal...

December 26, 2010 Blizzard ....

What could be a better movie to watch durng a blizzard...

3:16 p.m... Have you wished your loved ones a Merry Christmas yet?

So my daughter (14) woke us up at 6:00 a.m.. I felt like I had just fallen asleep.
"Merry Christmas... Can we get up now?"
Once a year she asks us to get up that early. Against what my body was telling me, my mind was screaming that I had to climb out of my warm and cozy bed. So, I grabbed my comfy's, threw them on, and out to the Living room I went.. with my snuggie in hand. Fred was in the kitchen, preparing the coffee....
She was just telling me the other day that the "Magic" is gone now with Christmas, since she no longer believes in Santa Claus. I beg to differ. I saw, and felt it, right there in my living room, at 6:00 a.m. -
I know she felt it too, and without a word mentioned, we all took our places to begin our tradition of Christmas. It was sweet. The stockings, as always... were full as they could be. And you should see their stockings! Almost as tall as me. It's always so much fun watching everyone open their gifts.. wrapped with love.

And now they're off to their Aunt and Uncles house to celebrate with their Dad. And we'll see them tomorrow...

Quiet house....

Maybe a dinner out at a Chinese Restaurant... It's usually the only option. :)

So one of my kitties is sleeping on my legs while I lounge on the couch and blog. I am peaceful, and relaxed. There's not much to clean up since we did a great job with it as we went along, and I'm happy for that.

Merry Christmas
Peace on Earth....

The joy of brightening other lives, bearing each others' burdens, easing other's loads and supplanting empty hearts and lives with generous gifts becomes for us the magic of Christmas.

Dear god...

Please let tomorrow be a better day.

Merry Christmas Eve

I am grateful for so much....
Family
Friends
The roof over me
The world around me..
Life.

Peace and happiness to you. Now, and forever..

Vacation is for relaxing, and doing things we cannot do on a regular basis...

I'm going to watch some warm and cozy movies.
Maybe go shopping....
clean house really well...
Take some time to enjoy the simple things in life.
A cup of tea..
Some phone calls to friends..
Maybe a night out for a drink, or a simple cup of coffee.
Take a few moments to share stories with my kids..

I'm going to say good-bye to 2010, and welcome 2011 with a new attitude, and maybe a few resolutions I could actually stick to.

I'm going to listen better, and be more patient with the people I care about..

I'm looking forward to this break... so much.
Keeping it simple. I've been pretty exhausted these past few months.

Yep.... looking forward to my time off..
and taking it all in.

Jenny Curran: Why are you so good to me?
Forrest Gump: You're my girl!
Jenny Curran: I'll always be your girl.

Whew!

I got so much done today!!!!! YEAH for me!!!

I worked until Noon. We had SO much fun at work today. We played charades. I think that's spelled right but it looks totally wrong!
Anyway, we laughed and laughed!!! We are like the show "The Office". Jonathan, the Vice President is just like Michael. We are definitely the best kept secret.

After work I got some shopping done. YAY!!! And then, I picked up my lovie boy Brandon. We had a date and it was great!!!! He is such good company, even when he doesn't say much. BUT today was a different story. He couldn't stop talking! So cute. He's so excited for Christmas. He always was. So special. :)

And tonight I am going to get my last few things.. my favorite thing to shop for! Stocking Stuffers!!! I love them the best. In our family we wrap all the stocking stuffers. It's so time consuming, and I want to NOT do it...but since it means so much to the kids, I'll be doing it for years to come I'm sure.

Oops.. I have to run! Everyone is waiting for me!

Blog more later!

Arrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh

Have I ever mentioned before how much I cannot stand WAL-MART?!?!!?!?!!??!?!?

I hate Wal-Mart. It's that simple. I can't stand it on a regular day. But, during the Holiday's? Who was I kidding trying to shop at the new super Wal-Mart a few days before Christmas. AND, what do they have that I need? Nothing different than I could have gotten anywhere else. However, I am done with the store, I have more purchases, and I am home... safe, and sound... with a raging Wal-Mart style head ache. :)

I have a half day tomorrow and then I'm back out to pound the pavement. I will never wait this long again to do my shopping. This is just crazy.

So, I took Brooke to the doctor and I got her meds for her sore throat. The doctor couldn't believe how swollen her throat was. I am so glad I took her.
And then there's the cardiologist she has to see. I'm a little nervous about that. I hope all the blood tests and stuff come out okay. I do worry about my girl. I'm just going to think positive. I love my baby.

What a hectic night.

Oh, MY Lindsey is home from Kentucky!!!!! She's spending the night with us tonight. I can't believe she's 12 and she's taller than me!!!! It's amazing to see how tall she's gotten considering I just saw her in June/July and she was about the same height as me then. Time passes so quickly. She's been part of our life since she was just a tiny little girl. Aww... so nice to have her here.


I better go for now. I have some gifts to wrap that I'm bringing to work for the girls tomorrow.

Peace.

A late night for me!
Went out for an unexpected Tuesday night out and I am totally exhausted. I can't say that going out until 11:45 p.m. is a normal thing for me to ever do!!!

Brooke has a doctor's appointment tomorrow at 11:00 a.m. so I'm just taking the day off. I see no point in running off to work for less than 2 hours just to have to turn around and come back home to get here. I think she has strep throat. I hate that she suffers with that pesky sore throat like I always have! I hope to get her on meds right away so she'll be all better for Christmas!!!!

Speaking of Christmas... I am not ready yet. I am going to have to wrap it up soon because I'm simply running out of time!!! I can't believe how quickly it came up. I've been so overwhelmed. Nothing new for this girl. I get frazzled very easily. I know I have to be a huge pain in the ass!

Speaking of frazzled.. I definitely need a break. I am still looking forward to my pajama day! I may take it next Tuesday. :)

I better hit the bed. I am not thinking straight (not that I ever do).

Peace..

Nighty Night.

What a busy girl I've been!!!!!!!

I did a bunch of shopping today today on my bonus day off! Now I'm beginning to feel a lot like Christmas.

And tonight I spent a lot of time wrapping gifts. I am so bad about waiting until Christmas Eve to do that. Tonight I got most of it done!! YAY for me!!!! Of course I have to wrap all of the stocking stuffers (why did we start that tradition) lol, and I still have a few gifts to get, but it feels like the bulk of my job is complete!

Our friend Mike (Of Ann and Mike) stopped over tonight. It was nice visting with him. I wish Ann could have come with him! She always makes me laugh a lot. :) It was definitely nice visiting with Mike though. He's a really nice guy. Time got away from us, and now it's 10 p.m.!!!!!

Back to work tomorrow. We're having a going away party for my Grad Assistant Tommy first thing in the morning, and then I am supposed to go to a Holiday luncheon that I'm not much in the mood to go to. I'll get dressed nice and decide tomorrow. I don't feel like commmiting to it right now.

I'm looking forward to Christmas. I'm happy about that. I wasn't feeling it much until recently.

Monday's Thought Provoking Question

As much as I love the taste of fine wine... I don't like the way it makes me feel the next day.

I was almost totally useless today. I had zero energy - zero motivation - and zero functioning brain cells. I didn't even accomplish the most basic of tasks that I usually do on Sunday. No Grocery shopping, no finishing laundry, no straightening up.... zippo. And, Pizza for dinner.

THEN, on top of it all... we finally put the "Clerks 2" movie on and I slept through 3/4 of it. Useless me.

Thank you wine. You were so fabulous, but you most definitely kicked some ass today. I know I don't feel well, but you sure as hell didn't help :)

I'm SO glad to be off tomorrow. I'm going to pick myself up and get some things done.

A very short week ahead. And a whole week off following that.... wow, it's pretty exciting.

 

Dave and Fred

 

2 Erin's. lol

 

Meg, Howell and Ilyndove

 

Megs and Fred

 

Saturday, December 18, 2010

 

What a party last night. I will post pictures later when I get the strength to get up and load them (lol).

I know I say this often, but I can't seem to say it enough...
I love the girls I work with. My beautiful Meg and Ilyndove - what a great time I had with them last night. Meg and Ryan hosted the nicest party. The crowd was so diverse. So many different types of people, personalities, ages, etc... wow. Nice people to hang out with!

One of my favorite conversations was with a guy name Chris who just came back from working on the NCL Dawn. He was very happy to have experienced the Dawn. Funny, I knew the entertainment he did the sets and lighting for. Fun. I got excited all over again about cruising, just sharing stories with him.

Toasted... I got toasted. That red Pino wine gets me every single time. But, I am happy to say that I did not get sick. Okay, I'm still in bed right now (9:00) but that's because we got home at 2 a.m..... and...

I've been up since 6:00 a.m. I woke up due to my heart racing so fast it wouldn't let me rest. My head, well.. it's fairly aching. Not worried about my head right now, worried a little about my racing heart. Hubby's been checking it for the past hour, and it's still a bit faster than it should be. Time to get myself checked out. I can't mess with my heart. I was scared enough this morning about it that I thought maybe I should go to the hospital. I think I was just nervous, and over reacting. I just need to really take care of business and get checked out.

Christmas is almost here. WOW - I can't believe it. And, I think I might be prepared by Thursday. :)

Today Freddy V turns 3. Going to see him at his new apartment sometime today. He's a cutie pie.

I need grocery's and I have to do laundry today. I also have presents to wrap, and a little cleaning to do. Wow, I don't feel like doing any of it. Ugh.

Coldplay ~ "Fix You"

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And on your face I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And on your face I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Yep... I lost it. I was screaming at the kids, throwing the "F" bomb around like a sailor. I feel kind of bad now, although they seem to be completely happy, content and over the whole thing. I still feel badly. I don't like to lose my temper.. especially in front of their friends. Ugh.... So of course I apologized to Caitlin, and she just laughed... and said it was fine. I think she may have thought it was funny.. who knows. Or, maybe she was just happy that I gave her a flat Iron. She told me she loved me, that was cute....

In any event, Fred and I got a lot of Christmas shopping done today. Holy Stressful! I think we would have done better earlier if we didn't waste our time going through the city to that weird place that was nothing like we expected! What a strange place!

And, I will admit... Franklin Mills Mall is very overwhelming, but it served us well today. Everyone was SO nice! I mean that completely! People were kind and helpful. I enjoyed my shopping experience there a lot. And, much was accomplished! Now I'm feeling a little bit more like Christmas!

Right now I'm sitting in the Living room close to the Christmas tree. Brooke and Tyler did a beautiful job decorating it with all gold decorations, lights, garland, etc... A beautiful tree. I am thinking that a hot cup of coffee might be good right now...

Hubby got called in to work. But, he's on his way home. I bet he's exhausted. Shopping with me is no easy task. I know I drive him crazy. I know I pushed his buttons today.... he was so patient. I appreciate that a lot. I was stressed and full of anxiety.. and, my head was pounding. I know it's not easy being married to me. BUT, I try to be kind and gentle and the best I can be, all of the time. Well, not all of the time. Not today with the F bomb flying all over.... lol

Party tonight. I'm am looking forward to it.

SATURDAY!

Time to go shopping!

It's freezing cold but I am SO ready to tackle Christmas shopping!!!! Hope it goes well!

Coffee.. check.
money.... check.
the will to face the crowds.... um, check....
the strength to ignore ignorant people... well, um.. check. :)

And off we go!

Happiness is being with my girls!

 

Today at Ed and Debbies. Megs and me.