Strike a pose....

Happy and excited for our weekend away

Self Portrait of us.

Relaxing before a long night of gambling

My Best Friends

And what a weekend it was.....

Just got home from our weekend in Atlantic City. What a weekend! Lot's of slot machine playing, and quite a bit of drinking.... but not at the same time!

I have some pictures to post, but I am ashamed to say, I did no picture taking :(

I am so disappointed that I didn't use my camera this weekend. UGH!!!!!!

It's been a long day, so I won't be posting a whole lot, but I will go over the weekend.....

Friday. Went over to Marina, checked Jimm and Monica in, went to their room, hide a couple of dirty magazines for Jimm to find in his "porn search", went down to the casino, played a fun game that with my first 50 cent spin I won 280 bucks. YAY! Nice start to a great weekend.....
Played there for a bit, went to eat at Marina's restaurant... and on to Taj...

Checked in at Taj. We got a room in the new Chairman's tower, so I was thrilled!!!! Got changed, freshened up, and went down to the Casino. Played and played until Jimm and Monica arrived, then played some more.... until, well..... like 3 a.m.

Saturday:
Woke up at 10:45 a.m.!!!! YAY!!! I never ever sleep in like that. Considering the time I went to bed, I felt lucky to have gotten that sleep. But, for what ever reason, I had a brain damaging head ache! But, we had to check out. So, we got ready, packed up, and went to Absecon to meet Jimm and Monica at Denny's for Breakfast. :) Love them.... When we arrived, Monica was at the crane game winning one ball after the other for a bunch of little kids at the Restaurant. Good thing this crane game was play til you win, or she'd of gone flat broke.. lol! Breakfast was fabulous. I mean that. I have been dreaming of a delicious waffle for like 2 weeks, and I finally had one. Since I am going on a really strict diet starting tomorrow, it was the last opportunity for me to have a waffle for a long time. IT WAS WELL WORTH WAITING FOR! :)

Then, off to Passport... with still, a massive head ache.
Unpacked, ran back and forth to Jimm and Monica's room.. then they all went to the flea market, and I stayed in so I could lay down and try to feel better. Thank goodness Monica had medicine for me. Did I mention that I love that girl? :) It took a long time, but it finally helped... then the group returned and I felt a little better.
Fred and I ran to the store to get beer and more wine, and now Monica wasn't feeling well. Poor Monica. She was having trouble with her tummy. We got back and she seemed to be feeling better. Thank goodness. I immediately opened a single bottle of wine (from a mini 4 pack) and drank it down. I really love Pinot.
We all got ready and hot the road. Went to The Black Cat Bar and Grill, they all played pool, we had a few drinks, and back to the room!

Okay... the rest for later..

I have to take a break.

Six of us playing poker.
I'm the only girl, out 3rd. Ugh!
At least I only lost 10 bucks! LoL!

Well, today wasn't much better than yesterday, but it sure makes me look that much more forward to hitting the road and getting the heck out of town! LOL

I did do a lot of laundry, cleaning, and stuff around the house today. woooohooo fun fun fun!!! It definitely needed to get done.

Now, I'm sitting on the couch looking out the window and I can't believe it's almost 7 p.m. and it's not dark yet! YAY! Spring is really coming. I can't wait!!!!!!

I need a haircut. My hair is a bit fried from the highlights. Maybe I'll make an appointment for Thursday, we'll see. I want to grow my hair longer, but it's way dry right now and definitely needs a trim. If I don't get it trimmed I will soon look as though I have horse hair.

Back to work tomorrow. BUT, it will be a very short week for me. I am so ready for a break.

Happy Spring forward!!!!!

Whew... what a day!

Okay, I just typed an entire blog post and just like that... it went blank!!!!!!!!!

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!

I'm not retyping that again! NOOOOO way.

But, the bottom line is this...

Next Friday can't come soon enough. Today was such a non weekend feeling day. It was completely exhausting, and we ran and ran until about 7:30 p.m. when we finally got a chance to catch our breath and sit down for our first meal.

Freddy is happy
Brandon is happy
Mike is happy
Brooke is happy
Tyler is happy..

And, we are EXHAUSTED! I'm in my comfy pants, and I have one more taxi ride to do, and that's to go pick Brookie up when I feel like going out again! lol

I did get my Driver's License renewed today. And, I made it out to the store (wow, that feels like yesterday). But, other than that, it's been mostly about other people for today.

Sitting here in the family room. No lights on, no t.v., and no noise.. and it feels pretty damn good. :)

I hope I can accomplish more good stuff tomorrow.

Don't forget to move the clocks forward tonight.

Okay, so I did make it to the liquor store today and I bought some whipped cream vodka for next weekend. I also bought some bottles of soda that I put away for the trip. :) I am going to be making up for this lost weekend, and last lost weekend, NEXT weekend. :)

My hip hurts a little tonight.

I hope the kids grow up and reflect back and think, "Wow, my Mom was so wonderful". Just sayin'

Went for Chinese tonight. I really enjoyed it. Fred's a real good guy. I know he wasn't loving the idea of Chinese. :)

Happy Saturday!

Good Morning!
I've been up since 6 a.m., but I haven't made it out of the bed yet! I've had coffee, and have been sitting here watching "I Love Lucy" marathon. What a cute show. I absolutely had no appreciation for this show as a little girl. It was definitely not a show for kids to understand. I even enjoy the black and white. It's such a silly show!!!!!!

Today I am going to renew my Driver's License, and get some things done around the house. No big plans.

It's beautiful outside. Maybe I'll spend some time cleaning up out back, around the pool. I plan on having the back yard looking beautiful this spring. I might even plant a garden full of beautiful flowers. It's always my intention, it's just a time thing. I should make the time to do it. Flowers in the front, too.

I should get up and hop in the shower. Going to make the best of today!

Don't forget to move the clocks forward before you go to bed tonight!!!!!

Happy Friday Everyone!!

Just relaxing on a Friday night :)

Brooke is at the movies with Tyler

Mike is spending the night, hanging out with Brandon

And, Fred and I are in the family room. I just had a cup of coffee and he just ate. :)

It's a peaceful night at home with not much to report. Work this week was okay, and it actually went by rather quickly. Nice.....

Mom and Dad are going to Long Island tomorrow :)

Oh, and don't forget, we lose an hour tomorrow night!! Spring forward... YEAH for lighter later :) :) :)

I booked the hotel for my Aunt Suzie's wedding in May. She's getting married in Sturbridge, Mass. I don't think I've ever been there.

I had my Birthday this week. Wow, It's weird.... I don't feel 43. :(

Changed the cruise for August.... now it's just Fred and me going and we'll go on the 7th of August, on a totally different ship!!!! But, we're still headed to Bermuda, the most beautiful place I know.

No big plans for the weekend, BUT, next weekend should be a lot of fun!!!!!

This wine is super spectacular and I love it and am so glad I bought 6 different bottles from this company in California.

My name is Erin and I am a 43 year old woman.

I am happy to say that I am here to blog tonight. I am going to turn in rather early tonight, as I have had some late nights and a little trouble sleeping lately.

Tonight I am going to get a massage so I am sitting here waiting for that.

I have more stuff to add to my bucket list, but I'm struggling a little with my fuckit list. The one thing that comes to mind for that list is that I no longer have the burning desire to ride a mechanical bull. I am way too scared that I will fall off and get hurt. It's not important for me to see how long I can ride that bull.. I've taken way more bull rides than I care to talk about, and I've fallen enough times for my own good. lololololololololololol

Oh, the flood is supposed to come back to Yardley tomorrow.. ut-oh for Yardley Borough residents. I am happy that we no longer live down there and have to worry about losing a house, or everything we've worked for. I feel much happier and safer here in Fairless Hills where I now own a home.

k bye

2009 Victories Chardonnay

Inspire me...

In no Particular Order.....

This is a a work in progress. I am sure there's so much more, but these are some things that definitely come to mind.

Places I want to visit:

-Switzerland (only because my brother and his family live there)

-Las Vegas

-I traveled across Country as a little girl. I want to do it as an adult.I'd love to stay in old, cool motels and eat at Mom and Pop Diners from the 50's. (On this trip I'd like to avoid Missouri).ick....

-Hawaii

-Aruba, Jamaica....

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- I want to go back to my hometown and walk the steps I did as a child. I want to go to the Stony Brook Mill pond and feed the ducks. Walk along Sand Street Beach and search for Indian paint pods and sparkling little rocks. I want to walk through the village early in the morning, so I can enjoy the peace, like how it used to be. I want to take off my shoes and walk down the village green and sit by the little pond and dip my feet in. And then I want to cross the street and stare up at Hercules. I want to breathe the fresh salt air. Yep... I can see it clearly. :)

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I want to get in the best shape of my life.

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Learn how to pole dance, and go back to belly dancing class. And put on my own personal show :)

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I want to fly in an Airplane without being full of fear

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Sing in a Karaoke Bar

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Take a Cruise out of Florida to somewhere totally new and different

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I want to rent a Jet ski in Bermuda and go Para sailing there, too.

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Shopping spree...without worrying about money

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I want to roller skate again

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Take a vacation on a sleeper Train

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Buy a condo or home by the beach

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Do a sexy photo shoot and love the way I look and feel

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Have a big party with all of the friends I have, both near and far. Just because

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Go to NYC and see another Broadway show

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Gain the strength and ability to stop worrying about things so much

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Get a full body massage at a spa, followed by a manicure, pedicure, facial, and all sorts of girly treatments

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Get Hypnotized. One on One... to remember things lost or forgotten

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Go on a trip to really rural areas and go to a ton of flea markets and yard sales. An entire week long trip just for that.

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I DO believe in Unicorns

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Own a fancy, girly car that I love to drive and feel super sexy and beautiful in

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Spend the day in China Town. In Philadelphia. New York City China Town is scary to me for some reason.

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Show up at my Granny's as a surprise and take her to the movies and out to lunch

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Spend an afternoon with my Dad

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Spend an afternoon with my Mom

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Go on more one on one dates with my kids before they're to old to want to anymore

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Go back to that cool place with Fred by the Susquehanna River for the whole weekend

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Spend a weekend with Joey and Rose

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Be there to watch both of my kids grow up into beautiful and successful adults.

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Watch my kids get happily married, and have families of their own

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Okay, that's enough for now. This is a list that will grow. No doubt. But, these are things I thought of without really digging....

Monday's Thought Provoking Question.

Red

Poker Girl

Photo Fun!

Everyone is safe at home..

It's rainy....

I have my comfy's on.....

And, I'm watching one of my favorite movies!!!!!!

After, I will work on my lists!

Sunday Morning.

Sunday morning.
I love Sunday Mornings....

Postsecret, coffee.. email check, facebook.. the usual routine. I am a total creature of habit. And, that's okay as long as I'm learning that it's okay to step out of the same old same old and try new things. :)

I'll share something about Friday night. It was so strange.
I went to the ATM to take $60.00 out. No problem. But, when it came out of the machine and I held it in my hands, I couldn't comprehend that it was $60.00. I was staring at it (3 twenty dollar bills) wondering in my head how they could have only given me $30.00. Fred was asking me what was wrong and I was so focused on my mental block that I wasn't answering him. Soon I figured it out, recognized that it was the correct amount of money, and answered him. Either my head is way to full of things going on, or.. I'm losing it. I hope it's just normal. The same thing happens with names lately. I could know someone for years and all of the sudden I'll be telling a story about them, or relaying a message regarding them, and I can't remember their name. I get a little embarrassed when this happens at work. And, sometimes when it happens at home I feel stupid.. as though I'm playing some name game. But, I'm not. I hope I'm normal. Well, as normal as this girl can be.

Today I have my usual Sunday chores to do. Laundry, grocery shopping, pick the kids up...etc..etc.. Oh, speaking of kids....
You know what I like best about my ex husband? That he's my EX! lol....
He was supposed to pick Brookie up yesterday from her friends house. He never did. He didn't even call her once. Thank god I am constantly in touch with her... He never even checked on her to make sure she was ok. Not once. She was fine. She spent the night with Haley last night. I knew that. He didn't. She could have been somewhere she shouldn't be... she wasn't.... she was fine. But, he had no idea, and no care in the world. Stupid A-hole.

Well, I better get my day started. I have a lot to do, and I'm excited to get it all done. :)

Okay, I officially blew my diet tonight. I am STUFFED!!!!! We just got back from Chipotle. They make the biggest, most humongous stuff burrito's I have ever seen and eaten in my life! Since we walked in right before they closed, and they were so kind and made us super jumbo special Burrito's, we decided to bring them home to eat them. I couldn't eat the whole thing. I honestly feel like I am going to burst!!!! But, it was so delicious. Absolutely scrumptious.

Okay, so Tuesday is my Birthday. I've been thinking... I need to make myself a couple of lists. And, just like the usual me, I am going to post them on my blog. I plan on making one list that will take some thought. It's a follow up to my 40 list. I'm going to try to think about new things I have accomplished or done since that list was created. It will be a challenge, but, as always, I'm up for it. Then, I decided I will also do a "Bucket List". This one may take some time and extra effort as well. AND, while I'm at it... I'm going to do a "Fuck it" List... This list will be a collection of things that were important to me ONCE UPON A TIME.. but is no longer... for what ever reason. :) lol In any event, I will be working on these, probably right here on my blog, and posting them wide open, for anyone who crosses this path, to see..... It should be fun!!!!!! Maybe not recommended for weak at heart.

Saturday, March 5th

New Blonde in Town!

Tuesday

So, tomorrow we're buying my son his very first car. Where on earth have the years gone???? It feels bittersweet..... I'm happy and sad all in a sweet, loving bundle.
When I told Brandon, I thought he was going to explode with excitement. He's not exactly like me. When I get excited over something I do a happy dance, make funny sounds, jump up and down, smile like my face is going to break... Brandon, well he's more laid back. But tonight, I thought he was going to shoot through the roof. He was thrilled, and it was a total surprise. We've never even talked about getting him a car. Not ever...... so, this is pretty exciting stuff...

I think the car looks pretty much like the picture. I'll see it again tomorrow. It's owned by a nice girl I know... but I can't place the exact color and everything right now.

YAY me!!!!!

So, today I celebrated 6 years at Rider University. This is the longest amount of time I've spent working for a single company. I have to say, I am truly grateful for the opportunity I was given 6 years ago, as well as the new opportunity I am given now in my new location in my office. Today was rather special and symbolic to me. And, to top it off, I had a beautiful delivery of flowers sent to me from my husband. Nice! It really made me feel special, and I am so lucky to be loved and appreciated like I am.
JDM came in and he was so happy to see me in my new workspace. He gave me a big high five and complimented the area that was created for me. I honestly hope this change brings new and positive changes and everything within my career. I do love my job, and I look forward to the up and coming spring season. It will be awesome.

So, I didn't mention it yesterday in my blog, BUT... I got a brand new, gorgeous, amazing camera as an early Birthday gift. It's simply awesome. So much to learn, and it brings me a few steps closer to taking some amazing photo's in the future. I love photography. I am really going to work hard on taking some incredible pictures. They hold much of memories. Without them, we may forget pieces of our journey. It's those every day photo's that remind us of who we are, and where we've been. I don't want to miss a thing.

I'm a little tired tonight. My lovely little high maintenance girl woke me up at 4:30 a.m with a few text messages. I hate that she was having a bad night's sleep, but it was also instant issue for me. Her problem = my problem. I always want to be there for her, but if there's nothing I can do to help her, why on earth would she harass me? lol!!!

Last night we had a nice time at Mom and Dad's for dinner. It has been way to long since we'd been there. I know they enjoyed having us over. I definitely have to make more time to spend with them. It used to seem so easy to make simple plans like that. With the kids getting older, and the fact that they have more of a social life, and every day stuff just taking up time, it's been so hard to get back to basics. It was nice. Even the ride there and back was good. It forced us to spend time talking as a family. We laughed, exchanged vacation ideas, both serious and silly.. and Brandon drove both there and back. Nice. We have to do that more often. I don't want the kids to grow up so fast, but it's just the way it happens. I so love my children.

Tonight George is coming over to exterminate. YAY!!!!!! We've been having this issue with ants. I HATE ants. I could share a story about my experience with ants, but if I do I will get sick to my stomach and grossed out, so I will refrain!

Monday. What a busy Monday........

Peace.

Monday's Thought Provoking Question...

Thank you god for putting a wonderful person on this earth who has taken my cats and given them a nice, warm, safe home, together. I have been struggling with this for weeks, and I've prayed for them day and night... My faith in good people has been somewhat restored and I am so grateful that there are still some really good people out there. I can now rest easy and find peace again in my heart over this whole mess with the cats. I can close this chapter of my life and move forward with a clear mind. It has been eating away at me and causing me so much pain. It hasn't been easy. It's the best way I can put it. The daily search on my travels to and from work will now come to an end. Thank you sweet lady, and thank you god for listening.......

Peace.

Sunday Morning.....

Coffee and Postsecret in bed. :)

I woke up early. But, luckily, unlike yesterday... I didn't wake up feeling like I had a hangover. It's bad enough when you wake up feeling that way after a night of drinking, but it's bizarre when you have that same feeling after a night of Non drinking! :) Hangover's stink! They make you feel like you never want to drink again. ((until next time)).

So, it's 8:00 a.m. I'm already stressing about going back to work tomorrow. I feel overly exposed in the location I'm in. I hope I can get used to it. I must have been dreaming about it last night because it was one of the only things I was thinking about when I woke up. I wish it wasn't such a big deal, and I wish it wouldn't consume my head.

I just lost my train of thought. I can't get it back. I suppose I could revisit this place later and maybe I'll have more to say.

Home tonight. I think it's the first weekend in several weeks that there was really no big plan to go away or do anything. We tried to watch the movie "The Social Network" but it was extremely boring, so we shut it off.

Almost a non day today. One of those days where you reflect back and can't really account for your time. I did get some things done, and I took Brandon driving, for a haircut, some clothes, etc.. and took Brooke to get her upper ear pierced, but other than that, and a few stops at some stores, nothing major.

I don't feel good. Being a woman is fantastic, but once a month it's painful and draining... I hope I feel better tomorrow with more energy.

Quiet house tonight. No friends here for Brandon, and Brooke is sleeping at Haley's Not a usual Saturday night when the kids are home. It's all around quiet. Not a bad thing.