Monday's Thought Provoking Question

Congratulations to my son who finally passed his permit test this weekend. The third time must be the charm. But getting your permit, does this mean you are now a grown up? No.... steps closer maybe.... yes.

I listen. I pay attention... but that doesn't mean I understand. I believe that I'm not meant to right now, and I'm okay with that for today.

Life is full of surprises. I need to remember not to over react, or under react, but to listen with an open mind and a heart full of love.

Teenagers are a rare and unusual breed. I remember it like it was yesterday....and, one thing I know for sure, although I may have been there, done that, I still don't know shit... and, I'm still trying to learn.

And, another thing I know for a fact. I don't have all the answers.

Life is one big fat precious grab bag full of surprises, ups, downs, goods, bads, and gifts. We never really know what's coming next....but we keep on rolling along, hoping for the best.

Peace.

You never know what each day will bring...
And, I do understand that each day is a gift.

But one thing that really took me by surprise today:


I never expected my 16 year old son to break my heart...

Wow...

Dear lord please give me strength.

Time marches on...

Almost 10 years ago, I sat at this very table, in this very spot.. playing checkers with Fred.
Last night, I re-visited, and even sat in my spot for a moment. So much has happened since then, yet the table, chairs, and checkers remain... as though time has stood still...
Oh, I'm the QUEEN of Checkers.. I am not kidding. :)

Home....

Solid commitment....
Fresh start.
Today is a sunny, beautiful day. About to venture out to a local Flea Market. It will actually be really nice to get out there and feel the sun on my face, and breathe the amazing..fresh air.

Just got back from a long, fun, icy ride to some far away town in the Pocono's.... Went to a nice, pretty strip club and enjoyed watching the dancers. It was topped off for me with a sexy, private lap dance. Nice! That was my third official lap dance. She was beautiful and sexy! :)
After that, Jimm and Monica took us in to visit the resort that Fred and I went to on our Honeymoon nearly 10 years ago. It was emotional for me... Sweet. It hasn't changed much at all... It touched me.

Now we're back at the Villa and we're getting ready to eat dinner. I think I might indulge in some of that whipped cream Vodka after we eat. I'm not a drinker but I could use a nice drink.

Having a really difficult time adding a picture to my blog from my phone!!!! Grrrrrr
I hate when I can't figure it out!

YAY!!!! I did it! I am posting on my blog from my Blackberry!!!!
So, I'm in the Pocono's for the weekend..and have no internet access, so I just logged on to my blog this way!
I'm still in my Jammies! We went to Mt. Airy Casino last night and didn't get in until 4 a.m.! Zzzzzzzzzz....
The weather is gray and cold and the misty rain is still coming down. Its truly a lazy day :)
Not sure what we're doing later, but now that I can blog from my phone I will post more fun stuff!
Someone just commented on my coffee bean post from 2007! I will have to start putting more fun puzzle like things on here again. I need to be more fun and playful again!
Peace <3

ICE ICE BABY.... Delay...

When we have a delay, due to bad weather.. it's always fun to take pictures!

Happy February

The month of love.

Each day of February I will try to post a loving message....

Happy February

Monday's Thought Provoking Question...

We all make our very own mark in this world.

Some people become rich and famous...

Some live in poverty...

And there's the one's that seem rather average, just doing their thing, and getting by, living each day as it comes, yet doing what we need to do.. to survive.

Each of us though, are so very special in our own, unique way. No two people have the same exact soul. But we're all on this journey together. And, we all have our very own path, and story to tell.

I wish mine could have been different at times. Had I done things a little differently, it would have been a benefit to me, this I know. But, I cannot change the past, and maybe that's sometimes a sad reality for me, but it is what it is... and the best that I can do moving forward is embrace it, and learn from it, so that I stumble less, and thrive more, in the days to come.

Chin up, Erin Elizabeth...

Better days ahead.

Always.. no matter what, do your best to look at the bright side.

Thank you for visiting my journey, my life.

Peace

I close my eyes
Only for a moment and the moment's gone
All my dreams
Pass before my eyes a curiosity

Dust in the wind
All they are is dust in the wind

Same old song
Just a drop of water in an endless sea
All we do
Crumbles to the ground though we refuse to see

Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind

Now don't hang on
Nothing lasts forever but the Earth and Sky
It slips away
And all your money won't another minute buy

Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind
Dust in the wind
Everything is dust in the wind
Everything is dust in the wind

Oh how I hate conflict. I would rather be hung from a tree by hooks through my nipples than to have conflict.....

Communication is key, but sometimes that won't even solve it. I need to really work on some things within myself.

I have things to do, places to go, and stuff to sell.

No listings yet, but for anyone who may stumble upon my blog, who has interest in checking out my ebay, my user name is Fashion-Avenue. The page needs updating, and I have nothing on there yet but hopefully by the end of the day there will be some interesting listings to view!

We have sold things for years. Some of my favorite listings were:
Fiero
Motorcycle
Retired Ambulance
7K Antique furniture (7K profit). That's a fun story in itself...
Thousands of designer clothing pieces
Baby clothes
random and unusual collectibles
alcohol (a long time ago before the rules were more clear) lol
movies
Jewelry
And SOOOOOO much more....

It's been quite an experience. To say the very least.
We used to have a house down in Yardley that was fairly large. I had a downstairs room full of rolling racks and ebay stuff all over the place. I ran a full time business there..

Sitting here now thinking back over the years, I can't believe all the different things and experiences I have been through in my life. No wonder I have Raccoon eyes and feel so worn out.

Yet, I want to continue to thrive in life, and welcome new and fun opportunities in the days to come. I'm not ready to give up yet. So much ahead, still.....

I never did get out to buy that Frangelico. I think I will buy a mini bottle of it if I can, and I'll try it out. This way, if I love it, I can buy all that I need and bring it to the Pocono's with me next weekend. I'll get Monica drunk like I did at Trump Marina. That was a really fun time!

Chin up, and look at the bright side. I think I'm just feeling down today because I'm not feeling well, and because of the conflict this morning...... There's still time to turn it around.

Freddy, Mara and the kids will come over for dinner tonight to celebrate Freddy's
25th Birthday. It seems like yesterday he was just 13. Time passes very quickly. It waits for nobody. Make today count. I am going to give it a try!

Sunday

Just got home from "Parx". Wow, it was so crowded!!! Like way too crowded!!! I am not feeling well. I was pretty spaced out and shaky while we were there. I'm happy to be home, but I'm feeling bad physically. I hope tomorrow is better.

I'm hot then I'm a little cold. I hope it's just that I have my period, and that I'm not coming down with something. I have way to much to do this week at work. Really just so much going on. I can't afford to get sick.

Tonight was weird. I wanted to enjoy myself, but I kept feeling a bit of anxiety. I'm weak. I should get in some comfy clothes and lay down with my snuggie.

Tomorrow is a work day. A work from home day. Ebay day. Next weekend we're going to the Pocono's for the weekend to hang out with Jimm and Monica at their timeshare, so I want to be sure we have some extra spending money for the weekend. We used to sell a bunch of things on ebay to make some quick money. It was usually pretty big money when we did. Those were the days. Ebay just isn't the same these days. The market is totally flooded, so it takes double the work and effort to earn half the money we used to!

I am wiped out and my eye is twitching a lot today...

I'm not finding dimes anymore. What happened?

I counted the reels again on the slot machines. I am suddenly okay with that. I thought I was weird, but I might just be normal. Maybe the rest of the world is weird. :)

I hate the snow. It's ugly. I wish I could blink my eyes and see green grass again....

I love my xm stereo here at the house. All my favorite songs play all day and night. I sing and feel happy when I hear music. Today I even danced around a little. I didn't care what I looked like :)

I ate McDonalds tonight. Bleah.... now I feel like I swallowed a brick. :) I do enjoy the sweet tea. Refreshing.

Red Hot Chili Peppers. They're playing.. Fred's not responding to it. He loves their music. I think he's really really exhausted.

I also don't think he's read my blog in about a week.

Roxie is pregnant again. I'm a terrible cat Mom. I need to get her fixed after this next litter is born. I'm going to have kittens again. Ok, they're stinking adorable, but I can't deal with it again after this!

I am rambling. That's okay, I'll never get this moment back, so... I'll just roll with it. Time is a valuable thing......

I'm going to sleep well tonight.

I've joined the project... follow me if you wish!

http://365project.org/erinmontgomery/365

Nuts and Berries recipe

serve in Old-Fashioned Glass

Scale ingredients to servings
1/2 oz Frangelico® hazelnut liqueur
1/2 oz Chambord® raspberry liqueur
2 oz cream



Pour ingredients into a stainless steel shaker over ice, and shake until completely cold. Strain into a chilled, stemmed or rocks glass filled with ice.

My house smells awesome!




This picture of me reflects how I feel today...




Fred follows me EVERYWHERE! Even when I go to the shower... then he regrets it, and ends up hiding behind the toilet every single time! In this picture he was following me to the family room... I paused for a moment in the kitchen and he thought we were there, so he dropped to the floor... Lazy boy. :)

Saturday.. sweet sunny Saturday!

Well, I now know why I had a blasting headache yesterday and a heart overflowing with emotions! Mother nature came to visit me this morning. Just in time for the weekend! (lol) So, there won't be any party tonight... not that we can't go, but I'm certainly not feeling up to it, AND... Fred's feeling like he hasn't seen me in ages (which he hasn't) so he's not into going either. Time to look at plan "B"... I didn't have a plan B... so we'll have to wing it.

It really is a beautiful sunny day! I hope it stays nice today so I can enjoy the sunshine. I miss the spring. I look forward to seeing green grass, and beautiful flowers again.. Oh, and the smell of a fresh cut lawn! I am definitely ready for spring!!!!

I missed yesterday's blogging. UGH. But, the way I look at it, I post more than 1 picture a day for my 356 day project, so I'm still way ahead!

Brooke's off to her competition.
Good luck my beautiful girl!
I just couldn't do it this morning!

I need meds.