Thursday night

Goodnight world.......

I'm not posting anything fancy... just popping in to send out good wishes, and sweet dreams. Ending the night with a smile.

This is my life.

Inside, outside, upside down!

Wooohoooo!!!

15 working days until flextime begins!!!!!!!!!!!

YIPPIE!!!!!!!!!!

Fun! *Big Smile

You may need to click on the picture to enlarge it, for a better view. Good Luck!

Good Subject ~ Laughter

It's contagious. I know it is. It's one of the most beautiful sounds in the world.

When someone is laughing, it makes me smile.
When I hear happiness, I want to be a part of it. I want to laugh along. And, most of the time, I do.

I enjoy making other people laugh. When I am able to do so, I feel so nice, inside. If I can turn a frown into a smile, I'm happy.

Today, I made some of my Co-workers Laugh. It feels good.

Susie came in (one of the most resistant to happy people I know). I made sure I said hello to her, with a friendly smile. She's sad today. She's just gotten back from a funeral. It was only a few weeks ago that she had to bury her son. Today, I want to make her smile. Somehow, I plan on lifting her spirits enough, to bring her a little sunshine. My goal for this afternoon. :)

Laughter.... the best medicine.
I honestly believe that.

Another goal: I will not say anything at all, if I cannot say something nice. :)

BLOG !!!

Funny word if you look at it. :) "BLOG" Dunno, reminds me of a creepy, Black and White movie on T.V or something, when I was a little girl. :)

Anyway. Here I am. I need an outlet right now, to express myself. I haven't been doing that lately. And so, here I am. This is my NEW someplace to get it out of my head. If you find it boring, no need to stay, and finish reading about me. If you enjoy it, well... thanks.... pretty cool. I don't lead a very exciting life.. but it's still mine.

I'm thinking about how fast the nights have been passing. It amazes me, lately. I think that keeping track, documenting... well, somehow it helps me feel alive. I'm posting, day after day, and the days turn into weeks, so quickly. WOW. It's a real eye opener to me.

Last night was ok. We went out for a little bit. We went to see Michelle. I always know when she's falling off the wagon (or, fell off). She is on me like bee's on Honey. Her breath is atrocious, and my eye's water from the smell of alcohol. She humps my leg (no joke), and she climbs all over Fred, too. What a difference it is, to see a SOBER Michelle, vs. a drunk, or under the influence Michelle. *Sigh. The thing is, people don't know, or realize while under the influence, that they are behaving any different. It's the sober one's that notice, and feel the change, first hand. I hope she straightens up. I'm sure it's difficult. We all have our struggles in life. Our weaknesses, addictions, etc.. I just hope she'll be okay.

I'm here at work. It's quiet. I wish I had a buddy to chat with. I can't talk to Eveline (until lunch). She and I don't usually say much in the morning. We both need time to build up our energy for Lot's of laughs during our break. :)
I have so much inside of me. I don't even know where to begin. I'm this person with so much life, and I feel like I can't let it out right now. Maybe I'll just close this page, turn on some music, right here at my desk... climb up on the desktop, and dance my ass off. :) In my mind, I can do that. Reality - the bats would think I'm nuts. lol

^..^ This girl needs to get out. I'm serious.

Quote of the Day!

"If you want to know the past, to know what has caused you, look at yourself in the PRESENT, for that is the past's effect. If you want to know your future, then look at yourself in the PRESENT, for that is the cause of the future."--Majjhima Nikaya

Happy Thursday

Time Marches on....

Seems like the weeks, and months are just flying by. Sometimes it's scary.

Happy Day. May you be blessed with love, happiness, smiles, good conversation, and be free of sadness.... on this fine, Thursday.

ITS A RUMOR! CNN Reports......

If you have heard the story on CNN that Rider University is currently under "lock down" due to someone being on campus with a weapon - IT IS NOT TRUE!

The phones are ringing off the hook! NOT funny.

A note from our president.

Dear Rider University Community,

In this difficult time following the Virginia Tech tragedy, misinformation is often quoted and rumors sometimes circulate without substantiation. Such is the case today with false rumors regarding an incident at Rider University.

Please be advised that the rumors and reports that circulated on campus today are false. The Lawrence Police Department and our Office of Public Safety have checked our campus and have deemed it safe and secure. There is no threat to our campus community.

Happy Wednesday!

Good Morning ~

So, I have been lacking in posts. I guess because I've not been feeling well....
AND, a lot has been going on.

I will add to this one... in just a bit. I need to put my head, and my thoughts together. :)

The Pursuit of Happyness

WOW. I cannot believe how powerful this movie was. It was amazing.

All I can say is this. IF you have not seen this movie, you should really take the time, and watch it.

For those of you who have any idea what it's like to live in poverty, or ONE step away..... you will have a knot in your throat during the whole movie. Like me. Although my experience was not the same as theirs, so much of it was. And, it was a huge eye opener, and reminder of how far I have come in my life. :)

AND, if you've always had it easy..... It's a must see! It might help you to appreciate what you have, just a little bit more.

I'm going to have my kids watch it. They have no clue what life could have been like, or could be like - thank god.
BUT, I want them to know that life is not always so easy.

Tuesday

SO, here I am!

Yesterday, they closed our Campus down. I didn't post very much, because I had a lot going on. When I thought I might as well go in to work, I arrived to the entrance of the campus, and Eveline called me to tell me that the whole campus was closing in 15 minutes! Well, I circled the campus, and hopped back on the highway. The rest of the day, I watched news about the VTech Stuff, and went shopping for goodies for my kids, and my hubby. I bought everyone presents, except me. :) It was lots of fun. And, everyone was happy.

The floods here are terrible. We had detours this morning, because the Delaware river crested above flood levels again. Very sad. I am so glad that we don't live near the river anymore. However, I feel horrible for the people that can't get out. They can't sell, or afford to move. It's just terrible. :(

Today is Tuesday. I'm happy to be here, at work. I'm happy to be alive. I'm grateful for my life. I'm blessed in so many ways. No, it's not sunny out. Nope... it's not warm, either. BUT, I'm here. I'm alive. I'm healthy. And, I'm loved by some pretty amazing people. Yeah. It's good to be alive. :)

I had a very late night (last night). I was out until almost 10 p.m. Zzzzzzzzzzz..... I know I'm getting older when I say that, and feel so sleepy.

More later. :)

*Waves to the world, with a smile.

Quote of the day... One to think about.

“Remember that I’m Human. Before you judge me or decide how you’ll deal with me, walk awhile in my shoes. If you do, I think you’ll find with more understanding we can meet in the middle and walk the rest of the way together.”



Feet - mine. From my trip to Alabama.

Virginia Tech Shooting...

This is terribly sad news.....

What a senseless act. What is happening to people in this world? It's so scary, and so sad. My prayers go out to those who have lost their lives, as well as their Family and Friends.

It's times like this that people should hug their loved ones so tight. And, make peace with things that are so unimportant, when you look at the big scheme of things.


And, for those who have chidren in school... you should say your prayers each day, that they remain safe, while they are not in our own, personal care.

This is fun!!!!

My son taught me this. He was so excited that I hadn't heard of it before!!!! Try it!! It will make you smile. :)

Wicked Nor'Easter Monday ~ Ice Storm, flooding, wow!

Well, my intentions were good......

Here I sit in my Living Room - writing my Monday Morning blog. I was getting ready for work this morning, when the phone rang. Mom and Dad wanted me to know that they had been flooded out. Black rock Road was closed. :( They were so upset. Then, I got the kids ready, and we attempted to leave for school & work. Nope, not happening. We went outside, and discovered that we were in the middle of an Ice Storm. What the heck? (lol). So, I piled them in the van anyway, and my cell rang. It was Fred, telling me that I am not to be driving in this weather. SO, I make the appropriate calls, and we unload from the van! What a morning. So, here I am. And, it's a good thing. There are accidents all over the place, and the news has mentioned that there are more than 20,0000 residents in our county without power. The Rivers & Creeks are flooding (again), and everything is just a huge mess!!! SO, long story short.... there's nothing so important going on that I should risk the safety of my children, or me.

Wow.... lol. My life cracks me up!

So, last night. Yesterday.... the weekend in a whole. GOOD. Nice.... Happy. Pleasant. One day at a time. Indeed.

I have a feeling that I'll be blogging a lot today... if I'm going to be inside all day, I might blog and blog and blog. Maybe not. We'll see!!!!!

Sunday - Rainy Sunday...

Good Morning world! It's raining again! I am so glad that we took advantage of the nice, sunny day, yesterday!

I was up SUPER early this morning. As soon as I woke up, hubby brought the computer to me so I could see the new PostSecret's for the week. WOW.... this time, I could only relate to 1 of them. :)

Today looks like a lazy day! Cold, rainy, windy...... but, it's okay. We could use a day inside. If I didn't need to get to the store, I'd would shower & get right back into my comfy's, and call for a COMFY day!! We used to have Lot's of those on Sundays. :) The kids loved it.

Gotta run for now. Catch up with some posting later!!

Yes, This is why I love a GOOD Saturday!

What a nice day!!!! Busy, but nice. This morning, the kids went with Mom and Dad to Philadelphia to see the Philadelphia Orchestra perform at the Kimmell Center. Family day, with music from Walt Disney's "Fantasia". They had a nice time!!!! While they were gone, Fred and I made the best of our time together, alone. We really needed it, since things fell apart for awhile. And, so...... we headed to Rice's Flea Market. Since we weren't the "early birds", we found ourselves hurrying through, as the vendors began packing up. It was fun anyway. We had a nice talk on the ride there, which made the fact that we were late, much less important. :)
We didn't buy anything until we were about to leave. Seems I just can't say no to old men trying to sell out their stock of Bagels. They were so cute. And so, We bought bagels. They were happy, and so were we. :) Nice really goes a long way with me :).

When we arrived home, it seemed like our date was soon to be over. We ran out for lunch, and I had a Salad. Gold star for the girl on a mission!

After lunch, we had Mom and Dad stuff to do. Picking up, dropping off... and before we know it - we have one extra child in our group. lol We always entertain extra kids on the weekends that the kids are home. :) This time, it was one of the usual kiddies.... Lindsey!

Off to the Car Dealership. I mention the thought of a new car, Fred's in the Consumer Reports book, checking it out. So, we go over to Reedman's. I test drive this car I've had my eye on.... I LOVE IT! We'll see. I think we're both at the point in our lives where we don't want to make a quick decision. SO, we'll talk about it, and figure out what we want to do.

And then.... we drop the girls off. Going to spend the night at Lindsey's house. Now, it's down to me, Fred and Brandon. Hmmmmmmmmmm..... off to Blockbuster!!! Rent a movie, get some snacks (no bad snacks for me), and off to the Clubhouse to watch it on the movie screen!!!! :) Bad movie, nice time.

Now, time to settle down for the night. Heck, it's after Midnight!!!!! zzzzzzzzzzz

Nice day. Really felt like things were falling back into place.

Cool.

Yeah, Today was all good. :)

Remember this song?

I woke up this morning, and when I looked out the window...... this song was playing in my head. And so, I share it with you!!!! May today bring you nothing but sunshine!!!!!

I Can See Clearly Now

I can see clearly now, the rain is gone
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It's gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun shiny day

I think I can make it now, the pain is gone
All of the bad feelings have disappeared
Here is the rainbow I've been prayin' for
It's gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun shiny day

Look all around, there's nothin' but blue skies
Look straight ahead, nothin' but blue skies

I can see clearly now, the rain is gone
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It's gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun shiny day

Happy Saturday!!!!

Well, yesterday I could have been described as the month of March.... I went into the day like a lion, and went out like a lamb! I started my day in a bad sort of way. I had troubles a miles high, and conflict with the people I love. Then, during the course of the day, I decided that I was going to be okay. AND, the people that love me, and care for me, well... they'll be there. And the one's that don't - well, they'll just "go away".

So, last night - I had a GREAT time with my kiddie loves. The 3 of us went to the Mall. It was so much fun. They love going out with me. They think I'm a pretty cool Mom. We laugh a lot, and talk about stuff. And, I listen to everything they want to tell me. It was nice..... just nice :)

Then, when we got back, I joined the small going away party for Marie and Brian. It was cool. Fred and I connected. We have had the most difficult time. It's been tough. But, last night was good. We played "Family Feud" with Jim and Dennis, and then he and I played "Scrabble". We both felt drained from all the conflict, and fighting. And, I think we both knew, it was time to start over. With a clean slate.

TODAY: CLEAN SLATE.

Anything for a smile

****** LET THE CHALLENGE BEGIN ******

The EASY part is done!~

Had my first "Weigh In" today.

My goal for week 1 = 3 pounds. Let the challenge begin!!!!!!

Ready, set, go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PICTURE OF THE WEEK!!!!!

Acceptance and surrender
Move us forward on this Journey. Force does not work.
Acceptance and surrender
Two concepts that hurt the most before we do them.

Today I am grateful...

For eyes to see miracles
For ears to hear angels
For hands to create beauty
For feet to carry me along rocky roads
For emotions to feel the human experience
For a mind willing to expand
For a voice to sing God’s praises
For a nose to capture scents
For a soul that will never know death
For a heart that’s breakable and has enough space to soar with love

If the only prayer you said in your life was "thank you," that would suffice. --Meister Eckhart

It's Raining, it's pouring.... Let's Celebrate Anyway!

It's Friday. Friday is my favorite day of the "work week". However, I've been miserable. And, I've been spewing misery.... and THAT IS NOT ME! Even when I feel down, or might be struggling with life, in general... I try to keep on track. Keeps me sane! And, when someone feels happy, with any luck, it spreads.... to others that may not be quite as happy.

So, It's Friday. Break out the Balloons. Celebrate life. Live a little. Smile, don't frown..... Be lifted up, not down.


And for those I may have brought down with me, I do apologize. I'm straightening up in my chair, and putting on my happy face!

Friday The 13th.

Seems to fit in with the theme of my life right now.

Sorry. Late, sleepless night. Unless I have something positive to post, I may be pretty quiet today, here.... on my blog.

Thursday Night....

Tonight was tough. Silent ride home from our first visit to our Therapist....

Communication - not working......

I'm sitting on the bed, writing this, while he's gone off to the shop, or something. I really don't know. He just left. Not easy, not fun. This is how it is for us tonight. This is how it's been, for far too long. I usually follow him. I can't do it anymore. I mean it. I have to stop. And, if something doesn't change, who really knows where this life will lead us.

I don't want to post sad, painful things on this site. But, right now, I cannot do anything else.

There's no fluffy, soft picture to paint tonight.



We're swimming against the tide. It's exhausting.

And off we go!

So, me and the bats.... We're headed off to "University Day" over at Daly's. The trolley will be picking us up at noon. (lol)

I must watch out for my little bats.... make sure they don't trip. climbing up into this thing. Ahhhhhhhhhhh... I have my camera! I'll get a few shots. Post them tonight. They have no idea that I have this Blog site. So, I can post their faces all over... lol - I must entertain myself. Helps me get through the day.

I'll post later. Filling this Blog Spot up!!!!!

If I get it all out, I feel better.

Thursday.

Tonight is HUGE. After being together with my hubby for 8 years, we're stepping forward & seeing a therapist. Her name is Nora. It's scary. It's exciting. It's huge. Two weeks ago, we had a huge blow out. Afterwards, it was important to us both, that we agreed to seek help from an outside source. We made the appointment, and since then, it's been quiet..... and peaceful at home. It's a big step. Opening up.
Funny... Fred and I are so intense. When we connect, we're the most affectionate couple in the world. There's never a moment that we're not holding each other, or touching each other... in some way. BUT, when we have conflict, it's intense - but to the other extreme. It's difficult, and we can't seem to find common ground. We both feel the way we feel, and find it hard to understand the other's point of view. Anyway, the bottom line is - we are seeing someone tonight. AND, I look forward to it very much.

Also, we are together all the time. It's great. If I could choose only one person to spend all of my free time with, it would be him. However, since we spent so many years isolating ourselves from the outside world, we've come to this place in our life where we wish we had more friends. Seems all the friends I have had, are like a snowstorm. They come into my life, bright and pure, and settle in for awhile. Then, as time passes, they begin to fade. And, like snow... one day comes, the sun rises, and they're gone. *Shrugs. SO, maybe we need to join a group, get out there, open our circle up a little more....
We talk about it. He has some great stories. I've heard them all (or at least most of them). I still think they're fun to listen to. I have stories too. He's heard mine 1,000 times. He's very sweet. I can tell him the same thing over and over again - and he listens, like he's never heard it before. BUT, it would be nice to share with other's. Does that make sense? See... look at me know. I can't slow down. Maybe it's the 6 cups of coffee... maybe I have too much to say... in general... who knows.

This is my blog. This is my one place. This is me. My life.