Six of us playing poker.
I'm the only girl, out 3rd. Ugh!
At least I only lost 10 bucks! LoL!

Well, today wasn't much better than yesterday, but it sure makes me look that much more forward to hitting the road and getting the heck out of town! LOL

I did do a lot of laundry, cleaning, and stuff around the house today. woooohooo fun fun fun!!! It definitely needed to get done.

Now, I'm sitting on the couch looking out the window and I can't believe it's almost 7 p.m. and it's not dark yet! YAY! Spring is really coming. I can't wait!!!!!!

I need a haircut. My hair is a bit fried from the highlights. Maybe I'll make an appointment for Thursday, we'll see. I want to grow my hair longer, but it's way dry right now and definitely needs a trim. If I don't get it trimmed I will soon look as though I have horse hair.

Back to work tomorrow. BUT, it will be a very short week for me. I am so ready for a break.

Happy Spring forward!!!!!

Whew... what a day!

Okay, I just typed an entire blog post and just like that... it went blank!!!!!!!!!

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!

I'm not retyping that again! NOOOOO way.

But, the bottom line is this...

Next Friday can't come soon enough. Today was such a non weekend feeling day. It was completely exhausting, and we ran and ran until about 7:30 p.m. when we finally got a chance to catch our breath and sit down for our first meal.

Freddy is happy
Brandon is happy
Mike is happy
Brooke is happy
Tyler is happy..

And, we are EXHAUSTED! I'm in my comfy pants, and I have one more taxi ride to do, and that's to go pick Brookie up when I feel like going out again! lol

I did get my Driver's License renewed today. And, I made it out to the store (wow, that feels like yesterday). But, other than that, it's been mostly about other people for today.

Sitting here in the family room. No lights on, no t.v., and no noise.. and it feels pretty damn good. :)

I hope I can accomplish more good stuff tomorrow.

Don't forget to move the clocks forward tonight.

Okay, so I did make it to the liquor store today and I bought some whipped cream vodka for next weekend. I also bought some bottles of soda that I put away for the trip. :) I am going to be making up for this lost weekend, and last lost weekend, NEXT weekend. :)

My hip hurts a little tonight.

I hope the kids grow up and reflect back and think, "Wow, my Mom was so wonderful". Just sayin'

Went for Chinese tonight. I really enjoyed it. Fred's a real good guy. I know he wasn't loving the idea of Chinese. :)

Happy Saturday!

Good Morning!
I've been up since 6 a.m., but I haven't made it out of the bed yet! I've had coffee, and have been sitting here watching "I Love Lucy" marathon. What a cute show. I absolutely had no appreciation for this show as a little girl. It was definitely not a show for kids to understand. I even enjoy the black and white. It's such a silly show!!!!!!

Today I am going to renew my Driver's License, and get some things done around the house. No big plans.

It's beautiful outside. Maybe I'll spend some time cleaning up out back, around the pool. I plan on having the back yard looking beautiful this spring. I might even plant a garden full of beautiful flowers. It's always my intention, it's just a time thing. I should make the time to do it. Flowers in the front, too.

I should get up and hop in the shower. Going to make the best of today!

Don't forget to move the clocks forward before you go to bed tonight!!!!!

Happy Friday Everyone!!

Just relaxing on a Friday night :)

Brooke is at the movies with Tyler

Mike is spending the night, hanging out with Brandon

And, Fred and I are in the family room. I just had a cup of coffee and he just ate. :)

It's a peaceful night at home with not much to report. Work this week was okay, and it actually went by rather quickly. Nice.....

Mom and Dad are going to Long Island tomorrow :)

Oh, and don't forget, we lose an hour tomorrow night!! Spring forward... YEAH for lighter later :) :) :)

I booked the hotel for my Aunt Suzie's wedding in May. She's getting married in Sturbridge, Mass. I don't think I've ever been there.

I had my Birthday this week. Wow, It's weird.... I don't feel 43. :(

Changed the cruise for August.... now it's just Fred and me going and we'll go on the 7th of August, on a totally different ship!!!! But, we're still headed to Bermuda, the most beautiful place I know.

No big plans for the weekend, BUT, next weekend should be a lot of fun!!!!!

This wine is super spectacular and I love it and am so glad I bought 6 different bottles from this company in California.

My name is Erin and I am a 43 year old woman.

I am happy to say that I am here to blog tonight. I am going to turn in rather early tonight, as I have had some late nights and a little trouble sleeping lately.

Tonight I am going to get a massage so I am sitting here waiting for that.

I have more stuff to add to my bucket list, but I'm struggling a little with my fuckit list. The one thing that comes to mind for that list is that I no longer have the burning desire to ride a mechanical bull. I am way too scared that I will fall off and get hurt. It's not important for me to see how long I can ride that bull.. I've taken way more bull rides than I care to talk about, and I've fallen enough times for my own good. lololololololololololol

Oh, the flood is supposed to come back to Yardley tomorrow.. ut-oh for Yardley Borough residents. I am happy that we no longer live down there and have to worry about losing a house, or everything we've worked for. I feel much happier and safer here in Fairless Hills where I now own a home.

k bye

2009 Victories Chardonnay

Inspire me...

In no Particular Order.....

This is a a work in progress. I am sure there's so much more, but these are some things that definitely come to mind.

Places I want to visit:

-Switzerland (only because my brother and his family live there)

-Las Vegas

-I traveled across Country as a little girl. I want to do it as an adult.I'd love to stay in old, cool motels and eat at Mom and Pop Diners from the 50's. (On this trip I'd like to avoid Missouri).ick....

-Hawaii

-Aruba, Jamaica....

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- I want to go back to my hometown and walk the steps I did as a child. I want to go to the Stony Brook Mill pond and feed the ducks. Walk along Sand Street Beach and search for Indian paint pods and sparkling little rocks. I want to walk through the village early in the morning, so I can enjoy the peace, like how it used to be. I want to take off my shoes and walk down the village green and sit by the little pond and dip my feet in. And then I want to cross the street and stare up at Hercules. I want to breathe the fresh salt air. Yep... I can see it clearly. :)

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I want to get in the best shape of my life.

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Learn how to pole dance, and go back to belly dancing class. And put on my own personal show :)

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I want to fly in an Airplane without being full of fear

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Sing in a Karaoke Bar

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Take a Cruise out of Florida to somewhere totally new and different

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I want to rent a Jet ski in Bermuda and go Para sailing there, too.

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Shopping spree...without worrying about money

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I want to roller skate again

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Take a vacation on a sleeper Train

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Buy a condo or home by the beach

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Do a sexy photo shoot and love the way I look and feel

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Have a big party with all of the friends I have, both near and far. Just because

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Go to NYC and see another Broadway show

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Gain the strength and ability to stop worrying about things so much

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Get a full body massage at a spa, followed by a manicure, pedicure, facial, and all sorts of girly treatments

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Get Hypnotized. One on One... to remember things lost or forgotten

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Go on a trip to really rural areas and go to a ton of flea markets and yard sales. An entire week long trip just for that.

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I DO believe in Unicorns

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Own a fancy, girly car that I love to drive and feel super sexy and beautiful in

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Spend the day in China Town. In Philadelphia. New York City China Town is scary to me for some reason.

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Show up at my Granny's as a surprise and take her to the movies and out to lunch

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Spend an afternoon with my Dad

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Spend an afternoon with my Mom

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Go on more one on one dates with my kids before they're to old to want to anymore

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Go back to that cool place with Fred by the Susquehanna River for the whole weekend

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Spend a weekend with Joey and Rose

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Be there to watch both of my kids grow up into beautiful and successful adults.

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Watch my kids get happily married, and have families of their own

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Okay, that's enough for now. This is a list that will grow. No doubt. But, these are things I thought of without really digging....

Monday's Thought Provoking Question.

Red

Poker Girl

Photo Fun!

Everyone is safe at home..

It's rainy....

I have my comfy's on.....

And, I'm watching one of my favorite movies!!!!!!

After, I will work on my lists!

Sunday Morning.

Sunday morning.
I love Sunday Mornings....

Postsecret, coffee.. email check, facebook.. the usual routine. I am a total creature of habit. And, that's okay as long as I'm learning that it's okay to step out of the same old same old and try new things. :)

I'll share something about Friday night. It was so strange.
I went to the ATM to take $60.00 out. No problem. But, when it came out of the machine and I held it in my hands, I couldn't comprehend that it was $60.00. I was staring at it (3 twenty dollar bills) wondering in my head how they could have only given me $30.00. Fred was asking me what was wrong and I was so focused on my mental block that I wasn't answering him. Soon I figured it out, recognized that it was the correct amount of money, and answered him. Either my head is way to full of things going on, or.. I'm losing it. I hope it's just normal. The same thing happens with names lately. I could know someone for years and all of the sudden I'll be telling a story about them, or relaying a message regarding them, and I can't remember their name. I get a little embarrassed when this happens at work. And, sometimes when it happens at home I feel stupid.. as though I'm playing some name game. But, I'm not. I hope I'm normal. Well, as normal as this girl can be.

Today I have my usual Sunday chores to do. Laundry, grocery shopping, pick the kids up...etc..etc.. Oh, speaking of kids....
You know what I like best about my ex husband? That he's my EX! lol....
He was supposed to pick Brookie up yesterday from her friends house. He never did. He didn't even call her once. Thank god I am constantly in touch with her... He never even checked on her to make sure she was ok. Not once. She was fine. She spent the night with Haley last night. I knew that. He didn't. She could have been somewhere she shouldn't be... she wasn't.... she was fine. But, he had no idea, and no care in the world. Stupid A-hole.

Well, I better get my day started. I have a lot to do, and I'm excited to get it all done. :)

Okay, I officially blew my diet tonight. I am STUFFED!!!!! We just got back from Chipotle. They make the biggest, most humongous stuff burrito's I have ever seen and eaten in my life! Since we walked in right before they closed, and they were so kind and made us super jumbo special Burrito's, we decided to bring them home to eat them. I couldn't eat the whole thing. I honestly feel like I am going to burst!!!! But, it was so delicious. Absolutely scrumptious.

Okay, so Tuesday is my Birthday. I've been thinking... I need to make myself a couple of lists. And, just like the usual me, I am going to post them on my blog. I plan on making one list that will take some thought. It's a follow up to my 40 list. I'm going to try to think about new things I have accomplished or done since that list was created. It will be a challenge, but, as always, I'm up for it. Then, I decided I will also do a "Bucket List". This one may take some time and extra effort as well. AND, while I'm at it... I'm going to do a "Fuck it" List... This list will be a collection of things that were important to me ONCE UPON A TIME.. but is no longer... for what ever reason. :) lol In any event, I will be working on these, probably right here on my blog, and posting them wide open, for anyone who crosses this path, to see..... It should be fun!!!!!! Maybe not recommended for weak at heart.

Saturday, March 5th

New Blonde in Town!

Tuesday

So, tomorrow we're buying my son his very first car. Where on earth have the years gone???? It feels bittersweet..... I'm happy and sad all in a sweet, loving bundle.
When I told Brandon, I thought he was going to explode with excitement. He's not exactly like me. When I get excited over something I do a happy dance, make funny sounds, jump up and down, smile like my face is going to break... Brandon, well he's more laid back. But tonight, I thought he was going to shoot through the roof. He was thrilled, and it was a total surprise. We've never even talked about getting him a car. Not ever...... so, this is pretty exciting stuff...

I think the car looks pretty much like the picture. I'll see it again tomorrow. It's owned by a nice girl I know... but I can't place the exact color and everything right now.

YAY me!!!!!

So, today I celebrated 6 years at Rider University. This is the longest amount of time I've spent working for a single company. I have to say, I am truly grateful for the opportunity I was given 6 years ago, as well as the new opportunity I am given now in my new location in my office. Today was rather special and symbolic to me. And, to top it off, I had a beautiful delivery of flowers sent to me from my husband. Nice! It really made me feel special, and I am so lucky to be loved and appreciated like I am.
JDM came in and he was so happy to see me in my new workspace. He gave me a big high five and complimented the area that was created for me. I honestly hope this change brings new and positive changes and everything within my career. I do love my job, and I look forward to the up and coming spring season. It will be awesome.

So, I didn't mention it yesterday in my blog, BUT... I got a brand new, gorgeous, amazing camera as an early Birthday gift. It's simply awesome. So much to learn, and it brings me a few steps closer to taking some amazing photo's in the future. I love photography. I am really going to work hard on taking some incredible pictures. They hold much of memories. Without them, we may forget pieces of our journey. It's those every day photo's that remind us of who we are, and where we've been. I don't want to miss a thing.

I'm a little tired tonight. My lovely little high maintenance girl woke me up at 4:30 a.m with a few text messages. I hate that she was having a bad night's sleep, but it was also instant issue for me. Her problem = my problem. I always want to be there for her, but if there's nothing I can do to help her, why on earth would she harass me? lol!!!

Last night we had a nice time at Mom and Dad's for dinner. It has been way to long since we'd been there. I know they enjoyed having us over. I definitely have to make more time to spend with them. It used to seem so easy to make simple plans like that. With the kids getting older, and the fact that they have more of a social life, and every day stuff just taking up time, it's been so hard to get back to basics. It was nice. Even the ride there and back was good. It forced us to spend time talking as a family. We laughed, exchanged vacation ideas, both serious and silly.. and Brandon drove both there and back. Nice. We have to do that more often. I don't want the kids to grow up so fast, but it's just the way it happens. I so love my children.

Tonight George is coming over to exterminate. YAY!!!!!! We've been having this issue with ants. I HATE ants. I could share a story about my experience with ants, but if I do I will get sick to my stomach and grossed out, so I will refrain!

Monday. What a busy Monday........

Peace.

Monday's Thought Provoking Question...

Thank you god for putting a wonderful person on this earth who has taken my cats and given them a nice, warm, safe home, together. I have been struggling with this for weeks, and I've prayed for them day and night... My faith in good people has been somewhat restored and I am so grateful that there are still some really good people out there. I can now rest easy and find peace again in my heart over this whole mess with the cats. I can close this chapter of my life and move forward with a clear mind. It has been eating away at me and causing me so much pain. It hasn't been easy. It's the best way I can put it. The daily search on my travels to and from work will now come to an end. Thank you sweet lady, and thank you god for listening.......

Peace.

Sunday Morning.....

Coffee and Postsecret in bed. :)

I woke up early. But, luckily, unlike yesterday... I didn't wake up feeling like I had a hangover. It's bad enough when you wake up feeling that way after a night of drinking, but it's bizarre when you have that same feeling after a night of Non drinking! :) Hangover's stink! They make you feel like you never want to drink again. ((until next time)).

So, it's 8:00 a.m. I'm already stressing about going back to work tomorrow. I feel overly exposed in the location I'm in. I hope I can get used to it. I must have been dreaming about it last night because it was one of the only things I was thinking about when I woke up. I wish it wasn't such a big deal, and I wish it wouldn't consume my head.

I just lost my train of thought. I can't get it back. I suppose I could revisit this place later and maybe I'll have more to say.

Home tonight. I think it's the first weekend in several weeks that there was really no big plan to go away or do anything. We tried to watch the movie "The Social Network" but it was extremely boring, so we shut it off.

Almost a non day today. One of those days where you reflect back and can't really account for your time. I did get some things done, and I took Brandon driving, for a haircut, some clothes, etc.. and took Brooke to get her upper ear pierced, but other than that, and a few stops at some stores, nothing major.

I don't feel good. Being a woman is fantastic, but once a month it's painful and draining... I hope I feel better tomorrow with more energy.

Quiet house tonight. No friends here for Brandon, and Brooke is sleeping at Haley's Not a usual Saturday night when the kids are home. It's all around quiet. Not a bad thing.

Did you ever feel hung over but you weren't even drinking? That's how I feel right now. I have a lot to do today, and I'm looking forward to getting out and doing it, but I am a slug! I have a headache, and I feel like I drank a gallon of some really strong kind of alcohol. lol

So my move went well yesterday. I actually have to still find room for some of my things because I've "downsized", but It will be okay. I'm just going to have to get used to it over there....

Last night Tyler and Brooke went to the mall. I didn't check on her a thousand times because she was with him. I felt more at ease than when she goes with her girlfriends. I hope he treats her nice. They are both so excited about being boyfriend and girlfriend. He is really her first official boyfriend. She may not agree, but I see it rather clearly. She's been in love with that boy for the past year and a half.

I better jump in the shower. Things to do today..... Shopping, haircuts, etc...kids...

Life

Thursday

Well, today was officially my last day in my area at work after nearly 3 years! I didn't think about it much, but I do believe I'll miss my first spot in the office of University Advancement. Tomorrow I will move on over to the other side, and be steps closer to some of the greatest people in the office. I am being supported by the Assistant Vice President of the University to move forward and up in the company. With his guidance, I look forward to some bigger and better opportunities that will be coming my way. I hope to move on to the next level and out of the union within the next 18 months. Although it will take time, I believe in what will be.

And, I also made some fun plans for mid March, when Rider gives us a day off to kick off "Spring Break". I look forward to yet another fun filled weekend with our friends Jimm and Monica! We'll start off with a fun night at the Casino's and a free night at the Taj and the Marina, and then on Saturday we'll head on over to the Passport Inn over in Absecon for our casual night of drinking, smoking cigars, and being silly. I hope it's a nice night! Heck, I'll even bring some outside chairs and sit out there with my bestie and our scented, fruit flavored cigars!!! lol

Thank goodness tomorrow is Friday! I haven't had a bad week, but again, I am ready for the weekend to begin. I don't have any big plans yet, other than Sunday when my parents come over for dinner... but I am looking forward to having off. :)

I have totally and completely failed the 356 day photo project. Heck, I'm not even sure where my camera is right now!!!

Tonight I cooked a fun and easy dinner. And soon I will get my sorry behind on the treadmill. I am not giving up. I don't care how bad it hurts my hip. I am going to get into shape!!!!! UGH!!!!!

Oh, and last but certainly not least. Tyler FINALLY asked Brooke out. I'm nervous. If he breaks her heart, I will just shake him so hard. This girl has been crazy for him for so long, and she is so excited right now. I hope he treats her nice and is respectful to her. It's hard enough being a regular teenager... but a teenager in love is twice as hard!!!!! Fingers crossed.


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I conquered my treadmill tonight! Yay me!!!!!!

Missing my Hump Day Pictures? :)

How's this one?

Happy Hump day.

Amazing how a little editing of a photo can make such beautiful art. :)


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Watching Survivor.
Got on the treadmill tonight.

Went driving with my boy and we had the best belly laugh. I LOVE laughing. It feels SOOOO good. We have a lot of special, funny moments together.... seriously. I don't know what it is, but when I'm with him, we both notice a lot of the same "strange" things... and he's very observant, just like me.

So today I was feeling more like my old self. I have been way off for awhile, and I've hated it. Today, I felt like me again. I wonder just how much it's the weather, or the daily stresses of life that seem to get me down. I enjoyed feeling good. I definitely don't enjoy feeling blue..... I'm going to work really hard at keeping myself feeling good and well.

Work was also less stressful today. It was actually the best day of non stress since I came back after the Christmas season. I didn't get a whole lot of packing done for my move, but I do plan on getting a bunch of that stuff done tomorrow. By this Friday I should be totally moved to my new location in the office. It's been really weighing heavy on me, but I also know that I'm very much a creature of habit, and any change in life seems to affect me emotionally. I really appreciate Ed taking the time to invite me into his office, and having such a good conversation with me. I don't want to feel angry and resentful. I hate both of those emotions and I know they don't equal anything positive or productive. I am hoping that I'll be in a whole new position with my career in the next 18 months. I'm going to put everything into it, and with that, I do expect some really positive results.

I was happy to breathe the air outside when I left work today. It was actually very beautiful outside. When I came in this morning, it was snowy and freezing. I can't say enough just how much I look forward to Spring!

I got some weekend stuff accomplished tonight when I got home from work. I didn't do my usual chores since we were away, so I am trying to catch up so this weekend won't be so overwhelming. I'm looking forward to having some fun on Friday and or Saturday. I think it's good to try to keep things going in a happy direction. I've had like 3 good weekends in a row. I don't want things to head in the other direction. I will do all that I can to keep it nice, happy, fun and playful.

I'm not getting on the treadmill tonight. But, I'm sitting a little closer to it. :) Does that count? Tomorrow I plan on putting 30 minutes in. If I can do that a few times a week to start, I'll move up to 45 minutes next week! I really really want to get in better shape this year. The better shape I'm in, the better I feel. I can't wait until all the yummy fruits and vegetables are in season. I love some healthy, delicious salads.

4 weeks until Spring. I don't want to wish any of my life away, but I am so ready for the sunshine and warm weather!

Peace.